Living On Borrowed Time

I have a confession: Ive always been a bucket list kind of gal.

I have had many dreams on that list: travel luxuriously in Paris and Switzerland, spend a month lounging in the Maldives, photograph wolves during a helicopter tour in Yellowstone, go for a snowy sleigh ride at Christmastime in Canada, surf Cloudbreak in Fiji, master the sport of ice dance, hunt for a trophy bull elk, snowboard in Breckenridge, study to become a pediatric oncology nurse…my list was endless.

It was easy to focus on my bucket list, and not always so easy to consider God’s list. How did He want me to spend my time, energy and money? Where did He want me to invest my talents? My bucket list was a reflection of my own selfish desires but the reality of chronic illness has forced the necessary lesson that kingdom riches are to be valued over earthly adventure. The things of this world have no value in the next, though we pursue them with a “you only live once” mindset. Matthew 6:19-21 cautions, Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal, but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal.

Jesus’ ministry was three short years. He was living on borrowed time from the start and as a result, lived with a focused sense of urgency and purpose. He taught His disciples to think similarly. When He sent them out on their first missionary journey, His instructions were “Do not carry any gold or silver or copper in your belts. Take no bag for the road, or second tunic, or sandals, or staff; for the worker is worthy of his possessions”, Matthew 10:9-10. They were to be unencumbered by earthly possessions and utterly dependent on God’s provision. Stripped down to the bare essentials. The only thing that mattered was the mission.

As my health has gradually worsened over the past 10 years, my mental pen has erased most of the items on my bucket list. Do I mourn the loss of my dreams? Yes, I do quite often. However, I also realize the fleeting impact those fulfilled dreams would have had on my life and more importantly, on others lives. God has taught me to focus my time, earnings, possessions, activities, and talents on building up His kingdom instead of my own.

I try to live one day at a time, not bothering much with tomorrow and aiming to use each day and its gifts for His glory. Friday payday? Tithe first and give to others. Weekend relaxation time? Set aside time with the Lord and do things that glorify Him. Cleaning out my closet? Give the clothes to someone in need versus selling for profit. Learned a new skill? Teach someone else and multiply the benefit. Have a special possession? Invite someone else to share the joy of it. We must all use the gifts in our lives for Christs glory.

All of us are living on borrowed time, and its up to us to choose how we will spend it. Will we spend our days storing up earthly treasures only to be regretful on our deathbeds? Or we will be content to live simply, willing to share our gifts and surrender our bucket lists so we can build up Gods kingdom?

~ Abi Gordon serves as Production Coordinator at LIFE Fellowship. She enjoys watercolors, photography reading, writing and spending time outdoors. She is as a native of Colorado.

But When You Fast…

My favorite meal of the day is breakfast. As a new day dawns, I need energy from a good bowl of oatmeal flavored with honey and cocoa. I also like a good bowl of cereal to finish it off. Breakfast is not just the meal but also refers to the time of day when the darkness ends and the light of day returns. The word is a combination of “break” and “fast,” simply meaning the time when the overnight fast breaks.

Jesus used meals in the gospels to illustrate deeper spiritual truths. First, we read about two separate occasions when Jesus feeds multitudes of 4000 and 5000 with just a few fish and some loaves of bread. Next, Jesus eagerly desired to share the Passover meal with His disciples before his suffering. Finally, we see the risen Christ on a beach serving up a feast of fish and bread to his disciples, inviting them to come and eat! In all of these examples, we see Jesus as the One who supplies life-giving sustenance out of what seems to be nothing. In this, Jesus reveals something about Himself that a well-seasoned Old Testament scholar would have quickly picked up on.

In the wilderness, God supplied the physical needs of His people with manna out of thin air. The rocky, harsh climate of the desert in the Arabian peninsula is unforgiving. The most cunning hunter could never survive in an environment with no natural resources for food. Therefore, they had to depend entirely on God to provide everything they needed. God faithfully fed them every day with the right amount of food to survive, and yet they, in turn, were required to demonstrate their obedience by gathering just enough for that day’s needs. Anything more would become worm-infested. God would even supply a double portion on the day before the Sabbath, requiring no work on that day.

Jesus revealed Himself as God through these miracles of providing food, and yet he instructs his disciples on how they were to fast. Did Jesus encourage fasting while He was present with these disciples? No. We only hear Jesus speaking of fasting in opposition to the examples set by the hypocrites. In Matthew 6:16, Jesus points out how fasting can be practiced in ways that draw attention away from God and onto themselves. Hypocrites seek the accolades of the people because they put on a face not indicative of the heart beneath. In Mark 2:16, the author compares John’s disciples and the disciples of the Pharisees who fast and Jesus’ disciples who do not fast. Jesus answers that as long as the bridegroom or Jesus is with them, they cannot fast, but they will fast when the bridegroom is away.

I could only imagine what joy there would be to share a meal with Jesus. Luke tells us that when Jesus took the bread, gave thanks, and broke it, he gave it to his disciples and said, “This is my body given for you; do this in remembrance of me.” Every observance of communion remembers the body and blood of our Lord – a time of intimacy with Jesus. When we fast, we recognize a deep awareness of need. Jesus meets this need is in a relationship with Him. To eat a meal in the Hebrew culture with another person speaks of connectedness. Jesus desires to share a meal with us but not with food that only satisfies temporarily. He is our bread from heaven whose life-giving Spirit supplies our deepest yearnings.

Finally, we anticipate the coming of our Lord again. As the risen Savior shared a meal with disciples on that Galilean beach, so we will join in the marriage supper of the Lamb spoken of in Revelation 19. Our fasting need not be for outward show but to draw us into deep communion and fellowship with Jesus that we may hear Him more clearly and eagerly await the time when we will finally break our long, long fast.

~ Shan Norwood and his wife Rina have been members at LIFE Fellowship for seven years. Shan is a recent graduate of Gordon Conwell Seminary and holds degrees in Biblical Studies and Christian Thought. He also serves as a LIFE University instructor and as a stepdad to Micah and Caleb Godsey.

Knees That Bleed (Daily)

I wrote a devotional earlier this year entitled “Knees That Bleed”, and since Pastor Ben taught a wonderful sermon on prayer this week, I thought I would make this devotional a follow-up to that, as the importance of prayer in my life has increased more and more since that time.

The longer I’ve followed God, the more I’ve realized that I desperately need Him, and just as the term “daily bread” implies, I need to meet with Him and be in relationship with Him every single day.

“Pray then like this:

“Our Father in heaven,

hallowed be your name.

Your kingdom come,

your will be done,

    on earth as it is in heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread,

and forgive us our debts,

    as we also have forgiven our debtors.

And lead us not into temptation,

    but deliver us from evil.”

Matthew 6:9-13

We’ve all heard the Lord’s Prayer, and most of us have prayed it countless times, but it never fails to orient us properly in the Christian life. When our prayers center around the themes of glorifying God, prioritizing His will, and asking for simple providence, forgiveness, and deliverance, we get closer to the LORD and understand that it’s His glory alone that we are living this day for.

The elder that walked me through my baptism process a few years ago taught me this: “Envision yourself on your Father’s lap as you rise to pray to Him every morning.” I see now that this is the essence of the Christian life. At the time, I struggled greatly with only seeing God as a holy judge, but I was wrong to not see him as a loving father, and this teaching helped bring me into a balanced and biblical understanding of God’s character. It’s taken some time to form that daily habit, but the LORD has been so gracious to me in teaching me to meet with Him.

Fast-forwarding to today, there has been a series of trials that have come upon me, but I feel the LORD using each and every one of them to pull me closer to Him. He’s teaching me the steadfastness of faith, and in turn, the dire need for each and every one of us to meet with Him on a daily basis. We can make it a day or two without food (ironic, with a sermon on fasting coming up this week), but we can’t make it a day without the LORD. We can’t breathe apart from His power.

But he answered, “It is written,

“‘Man shall not live by bread alone,

    but by every word that comes from the mouth of God.’”

Matthew 4:4

Another elder that I’ve been meeting with has been teaching me the importance of daily scripture reading alongside a reading technique called SOAPing, and it’s one I highly recommend to all of my brothers and sisters in Christ! You simply write down a few verses of Scripture, followed by Observations, then Applications to your life, followed by a Prayer to the LORD.

It is a simple yet effective daily discipline that engages you with the true meanings of scripture in context, as well as directing you to our Father in Heaven as you walk out the day with Him. Every SOAP I have completed has increased my longing to meet with Him again, again, and again, for longer, longer, and longer.

Moments of intense grief and pain will drive us to our knees to call out to the LORD, and I believe He ordains that, seeking to stir us to rely on Him above all things. But it’s also in making our knees bleed daily that the LORD truly achieves a steadfast and faithful relationship with us.

Even when life is bland and typical, there is so much joy to be found in spending time with Him, and I’m so blessed by the LORD to know Him through these private and intimate meetings. Even when I fail, he calls me back to the prayer closet. I’d be lost to the gates of hell without Him, and for that salvation and His glory alone, I press on.

~ Alex Nicholson serves as Social Media Director and Music Director at LIFE Fellowship.

Knowing Him

My mentor called me one evening, and as we spoke it was if she could feel the weight of my weariness through the phone. It had been a long day. I was worn out and feeling stressed about having to finish a lengthy Bible study assignment before my head could hit the pillow. Her voice firmly, yet gently, reminded me that I don’t need to feel obligated to finish my Bible Study homework.

“Tara, He simply wants your attention. Can you put aside the task and just talk to Him?”

This question puzzled and comforted me at the same time. You mean God doesn’t care if I finish all the questions? He’s not waiting with pen in hand to check off my list of to-do’s for the day?

No. He’s not like that. He just wants me. He wants my attention. He wants my heart.

How refreshing!

Our Father doesn’t want a check-the-box mentality from us. He wants us to want to be with Him. To want to know who He is. To experience His love, His sacrifice, His grace and mercy… to simply enjoy the presence of our Creator.

God wants us to KNOW Him.

As Pastor Dan explained, the best way to know someone is by building a relationship with them. Now, we know good, strong, and lasting relationships don’t happen by chance. They take time. Investing time is hard for us in today’s instant-gratification world. Social media tries to connect us with people we should be “Friends” with. We add a new “Friends” to our feeds just because they’re mutual friends with someone we know.

I have to pause and ask myself, Do I even know this person? Do I have any idea of what their interests are? Their beliefs? Their priorities? Will I ever get to know them as a real friend?

Our last sermon series focused on the names of God. Knowing the names of God increases our understanding of Him. But knowing about someone and truly knowing someone are two different things. To understand others, to really know them, we need to spend time with them.

King David knew God well. He spilled his heart out to Him, worshiped Him, trusted in Him and celebrated Him. And God heard him. Just like the Lord hears you and me. I can almost see David crying out to us in Psalm 34:8: “Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good! Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him!”

While spending time with the Lord isn’t complicated, it does take practice and persistence. It takes discipline.

It will look different for each of us. For some it might look like setting your alarm 30 minutes or an hour earlier to avoid distractions of the day. For others it might look like shutting off the cable news channel and opening our Bibles. For some it might look like turning the satellite radio channel from talk radio to worship music.

The best mornings I have are spent with Bible and notebook open…pen in one hand, coffee mug in the other. I love those mornings with Jesus. Crave them. The more time I spend with Him, the more time I WANT to spend with Him. The more I know Him, the more I want to know Him!

Yet I still struggle with the bigness of it all… His love for me. I struggle with believing that the God who hung the stars and breathed life into existence really wants to know me and be known by me. That He cares and is near.

I understand God’s always with me, but still tend to think of Him as being seated high in Heaven, not next to me at the kitchen table, guiding me through His love letter, nodding and smiling as we go. Yet He is there with me. He is there with you. His presence is inescapable, He is the vine and we are the branches. This is how we grow together.

Some days I get all my Bible Study questions completed. Some days I don’t. Some days all I can do is sing praises in the car as I run my kids from activity to activity. What I’m learning is this: what God really wants is my attention and my heart.

That’s what He wants from all of us.

How will you spend time with Him today?

~ Tara Dye is a longtime member of LIFE Fellowship. She and her husband Paul have three children.

Red Sea Places

Have you ever wondered about hymn writers?

Who they were? Why they wrote? What their lives were like?

This week, I learned about Annie Flint, a hymn-writer who also wrote poetry. Annie was born in New Jersey in 1866 to a life of heartbreak; and yet, her inspirational story is one of standing strong on God’s promises and trusting who He is no matter what the circumstances. From a quick study of her life, it is clear that Annie Flint surely knew The Lord of Hosts, Jehovah Sabaoth.

After her mother died when she was 3, Annie’s father gave her and her sister up for adoption. Though she was young, Annie suffered greatly from arthritis. Eventually it prevented her from walking and ushered in years of helplessness for Annie. A few years later, both adoptive parents died leaving Annie and her sister alone, and destitute. Annie found herself in a “Red Sea Place,” an impossible and desperate situation through which God faithfully guided her.

Annie began to write hymns and poetry, and through her writing, peace overcame her despite her physical and financial sufferings. Hand-lettered cards and gift books continued Annie’s writing. Soon, messages of gratitude and blessings from her writings began to pour in from all around. It was then that her work was published in greeting cards and in her first poetry brochure.

Annie Flint was certain of one thing: God was glorifying Himself through her weakness. She was convinced that though she couldn’t always “see” God’s purpose for her, He had called her for His specific purpose; He was carrying her through her “Red Sea Place.”

As I read Annie’s words in her poem, “What God Hath Promised,” I thought of Isaiah as he remarked, “Woe is me! My eyes have seen the King, the Lord of Hosts!” (Isaiah 6).

He gives more grace when the burdens grow greater.

He sends more strength when the labors increase,

To added affliction, He addeth His mercy,

To multiplied trials, His multiplied peace.

When we have exhausted our store of endurance,

When our strength has failed ‘ere the day is half done;

When we reach the end of our hoarded resources

Our Father’s full giving is only begun.

His love has no limit, His grace has no measure.

His power no boundary known unto men;

For out of His infinite riches in Jesus

He giveth and giveth and giveth again.


Isaiah and Annie Flint too, it seems, got a glimpse of The Lord of Hosts, Jehovah Sabaoth. They realized they didn’t have all the answers; they didn’t see it all; they didn’t know it all. They understood they didn’t have to though. The Lord of Hosts already did; what they needed was to know and trust Him, He who was, and is, and will be forevermore. When Annie and Isaiah glimpsed the Lord in their lives and in their vision, they were undone. As it turns out, undone is not a bad place to be. In fact, as Charles Spurgeon once wrote, “God will never do anything with us until he has first undone us.”

The Covid pandemic has proven to be an impossible situation, one that added to our already difficult challenges of life, has caused us to feel overwhelmed and powerless at times. It’s undone us. As Annie Flint’s life illustrates, in these “Red Sea Places,” God may not remove our obstacles, but He will carry us through them. And He will use them. For His glory and our good. As we face today’s challenges, let’s not lose hope; let’s continue in our pursuit and knowledge of Him; let’s return to the Truth and cry out to the Lord of Hosts; let’s run into the Strong Tower of Jehovah Sabaoth.

~ Nicole Bryan has been a member of LIFE Fellowship for over 10 years and will graduate from Dallas Theological Seminary in May with a M.A. in Biblical Studies. She and her husband Callan have three children. 

Radical Obedience

Radical obedience is the basis for understanding the name of God, Yahweh Yireh (which means “The LORD will provide.”)   We can see how the Lord provides in Abraham’s journey to Mount Moriah in Genesis 22 and our daily lives as we live out our faith through radical obedience.

Genesis 22:2 starts with a command to Abraham, “Take your only son whom you love and …offer him as a burnt offering.” So Abraham took his son Isaac to the place God commanded him.

This command was a test of Abraham’s faith.  Was he willing to give up his beloved son, or would he find a way to avoid doing what God commanded?

Some people have read this and wonder how God could command child sacrifice. God’s plan never included Abraham sacrificing his son.  (In the law given to Moses, God clearly stated that child sacrifice was never acceptable.) Instead, this command to sacrifice Isaac was a way to test Abraham’s faith and move him to a place of even greater blessing.

I have observed in my life and in my friend’s lives that God often points us in an interim direction that we can understand to move us just enough so that we can see what He really wants for us, which is so much better, whether we are looking for a new house, finding a spouse, or seeking our life’s purpose.   Every step of the way requires walking in faith and trusting that God, who can see the future and knows what is best for us, will provide.

As Abraham and Isaac hiked up Mount Moriah, Isaac  asked his dad, “Where is the lamb for the burnt offering.” Abraham said, “God himself will provide the lamb.” (Vs.8)

The phrase “will provide” in this verse comes from the Hebrew word Yireh. Other Biblical passages translate it as “will see.” Our English word “provision” comes from “pro,” which means “beforehand” and “vision,” which has to do with seeing.   A provision is a resource we have before we need it. So Abraham is telling Isaac; God sees our need, and He will take care of it.

Abraham walked out his faith every step of the journey. At any point,  he could have changed his mind and decided not to obey. Instead, he chose to obey because he had confidence in God’s character. He held fast to the knowledge that the God who gave a son to Sarah and him in their old age could take care of his family even to the point of death. Though Abraham couldn’t see what God had around the next bend, he continued to believe that God would provide the sacrifice, or God would raise his son from the dead (Hebrews 11:17-19).

Just as Abraham raised his knife, the angel of the Lord called his name to stop him.  He said, “Do not lay your hand on the boy or do anything to him, for now I know that you fear God, seeing you have not withheld your son, your only son, from me.” (Genesis 22: 12)  Just then, he looked behind him and saw a ram caught in the thicket. So, Abraham offered the ram as a burnt offering instead of his son. Abraham named that place, “The LORD will provide.” Then the angel of the Lord proclaimed that Abraham’s offspring would be as numerous as the stars in the heavens, and all the nations of the earth would be blessed through his descendants.

Abraham’s radical obedience and willingness to trust God with his beloved son led to generations of blessing for all nations. When God calls us to radical obedience, it is because He is our Pro-Vision.  He can see what we need before we even realize it.

Andy Barker created this list of questions to discover what you are holding onto that is keeping you back from radical obedience.

Do you need to forgive?

Do you need to love your enemies?

Do you need to trust and give up fear and anxiety?

Do you need to start talking about Jesus when it feels like masks are most important?

Do you need to continue in obedience when it feels like you do not see His provision?”

God calls us to let go of things that have replaced Him in our hearts. At times in my life, I have put my desires, career, academics, and personal relationships above my relationship with Jesus. An idol is anything other than God that we expect to be our Provider, our Security, our Joy, our Love, our Healer, or our Life. Just as Abraham laid Isaac on the altar, God is calling us to dedicate our finances, jobs, family, health, and joy to him.  Doing things God’s way in obedience will lead to God’s blessing  for generations.  We can trust that He will provide all that we need. He is Yahweh Yireh, The Lord Will Provide.

~ Penny Noyes, M.Ed. just released her fourth book Seeing Value A Biblical Perspective on Intrinsic Value on Amazon. She also writes for, and her blog.   She is a wife to Tom, mom to Chris and John, Step-mom to Hillary and Jeremy (son in Law) and a Mimi to the cutest grandkids ever.